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i got a...
you guessed it....
MY SPACEEEE
once again.
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August 14th @ 6:15pm
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stop reading my journal you fat child.
friends only<3.
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July 13th @ 1:05pm
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once upon a time, a young girl named pseudo was very insecure about herself. she strived for recognition, and did anything to draw negative attention to herself. after hearing about a girl she knew going to a psychiatric hospital for treatment for depression, pseudo got the idea of claiming she went to the same hospital. after realizing that people suddenly thought she was so “cool and different”, she conjured up even more stories about her life. her parents beat her, she was a “hardcore cutter”, had 30951 eating disorders, you name it, pseudo had it. she liked to hang around a local coffee shop and do things like yell and light things on fire and pretend to smoke cigarettes. god, she was epic.
after a while, another girl named veracious found out about pseudo’s lying. veracious was close friends with some of the girls pseudo had made up stories to, and veracious was really surprised. pseudo and veracious were somewhat friends, or at least were on good terms, so veracious didn’t understand why pseudo had done this. veracious never told anyone about what she knew, she kept it to herself. she wasn’t one to judge. however, the reason veracious was hurt by pseudo was because veracious herself had been through the things pseudo claimed she went through. she had been to a psych hospital, cut herself, and had a very serious eating disorder. she had also gone through drug rehab and had issues with her family. veracious had been through a lot and was confused why someone would brag about things like that as if it were an accomplishment to go through these things. well, pseudo was very pissed that veracious figured all this out and accused veracious of gossiping about all of it, when she hadn’t.
the moral of the story is:
P.S. using the word “gay” where it doesn’t fit, is incredibly immature and obnoxious. don’t claim to be such an open and accepting person, when you use words like that as if it means nothing.
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June 30th @ 2:03pm
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tomorrow is the one year anniversary of ian's passing. (as i'm sure you all know)
there's going to be a memorial service tomorrow at 1:30 at the united methodist church in ridgewood. (the church across from van neste square and mt. carmel church)
its going to be really nice and it'll mean a lot if people who knew ian or even just knew of him to come hang out.
**even though there are bands playing, this isn't a show.it's a memorial and celebration for ian.**
please come xoxo hope to see you there.
if anyone has any suggestions or ideas or questions or anything at all, leave me a comment!
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June 21st @ 12:59pm
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On July 1, at around 1:00, theres going to be a memorial service for Ian Mulhare at the United Methodist Church on Dayton Street in Ridgewood (across from Van Neste) Theres some bands playing and food and all that fun stuff and its free so theres NOOO excuse not to come for Ian <3 It would really mean a lot to him and his family if you came. Tell anyone you know that would want to come <3<3 thank you!
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June 17th @ 11:10pm
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i went to see mrs. mulhare yesterday [finally.] i feel so much better now. all my questions were answered. and his anniversary is coming up and im real excited about what we're going to do for it<3 hopefully it'll work out.
she gave me his marilyn manson patch that he wore all the time and it means everything to me.
but im bummed. i dont know why. i just feel like everythings about to get really bad really fast
im tired...good night.
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June 12th @ 9:46pm
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things seem to be just floating…which is better than everything not moving at all. i miss something…i don’t really know what it is. that doesn’t make much sense, but whatever.
studying for finals is getting old. and this entry is really boring.
school is going to be over soon- everything is going by so so fast. i hate when time goes by fast when i don’t want it to. not that i want to be in school, i just don’t want peter leaving for college yet.
its going to be july soon. a whole year has gone by. it feels like a month, but then sometimes it feels like forever.
[i think of you constantly]
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May 19th @ 7:47pm
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when did everything start to fall apart again? i must have missed something...
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May 15th @ 1:25pm
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i went to see the movie crash with peter last night and it was amazing. it showed how minorities are treated and the movie addressed every kind of prejudice and discrimination possible in every minority. i highly recommend it.
i dont know what else to say. livejournal is gettin old. just like myspace. that died pretty damn fast.
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May 7th @ 6:39pm
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i drove aaaalllll the way to see my love bailee and it was so awesome. i havent seen her in almost a year now and that seems so crazy. its been almost a year for everything, so seeing bailee meant a lot to me...it made me feel really good about where i was when we met, and about where i am now at our little reunion.
and she has the most beautiful house ever. <3<3 im so happy now
and peters coming over soon to "watch movies" mwah haha
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May 4th @ 12:55am
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because i have no life at 1 am, i was reading random news reports on the eyewitness news website and came across the most ridiculous story ever.
you will be extremely amused. i swear.
click here
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May 4th @ 12:39am
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the girl whose body was found in the apartment that was set on fire by my sister was this beautiful girl. they just discovered that she was strangled and killed before the person set the apartment on fire to cover it up. thats so sad. there were these people from her town saying how she was such a good person and did all this volunteer work for her community, and that she fought against violence. and then she got killed by a complete stranger. its so sad... my sister was a mess yesterday-- she seemed better today. lauren was saying how there are all these flowers outside her apartment. she was like "we just found out before that she was strangled by whoever killed her. no wonder mike and i didnt here anyone screaming- she couldnt." owijy5um4 vb6 what a nightmare for them. i feel so bad for everyone down there. they must be so scared. i cant even imagine..
heres a story if anyone's interested:
Police: White Plains Student Was Strangled
there's a picture of her in this story...shes so pretty
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May 2nd @ 7:04pm
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2 doors down from where my sisters boyfriend and her 2 best friends live, and where my sister stays every night, a girl was murdered by a complete stranger. and her apartment was set on fire to try and cover it up. 2 doors down from my sister.
why do we have to worry about things like this happening? why does my sister and her friends have to be petrified of going anywhere? why do i have to pray that my sister doesnt get killed, too
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April 29th @ 2:39pm
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ms. kalebic said she doesnt have anything left to teach for today in psych, so we're just sitting here. i feel like im going to cry. not because we're not doing anything, just because i feel like im going to cry.
i feel down. i dont miss turks anymore so its not that. i dont know what it is. i hate when i feel like this. i havent felt lonely in such a long time. all these people are talking around me and im just sitting here typing on my fucking livejournal so that i dont sit alone at my desk and look pathetic. i didnt even want to write in this. i just dont want anyone to see me not having anyone to talk to. how sad is that. im in middle school again. im dreading these next 10 minutes.
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April 27th @ 7:56pm
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paradise during april break......
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April 17th @ 5:12pm
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yesterday was so much fun. i went into the city with peter and we went to the guggenheim museum. i had such a good time with him. and then he took me to trash and vaudville (i cant spell) and i thought it was really nice how we took each other to things we wanted to "share" i guess you would say.
but before all this...i got another tattoo! but this one is really special. this picture of it is bad, i took it with my phone so just try and imagine it looking not blurry.
the really weird thing about the whole "experience" is that when we were waiting for the artist guy to come, the owner of the place was like "the artist ian will be here at 12."
what fate<3
something was trying to tell me ian was there with me. hopefully because he realized how much of an impact he made on my life. on the interior or now on the exterior, he'll be a part of me permanently.
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April 12th @ 10:16pm
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i dont think anything can bring down me and peter's relationship. we have such good "communication". and as much as i dont want to admit im wrong sometimes, hes the only person i can actually let my guard down to. it makes me really happy how we both care about this relationship so much that we bring up uncomfortable things we dont want to talk about and talk about them anyway to make sure everythings okay. and that fact that he had the balls to tell me im a bitch haha and that i turn everything around on him when hes mad about something made me really happy. because i know i do it, and because he said something, now i have to change it (not that i didnt want to) and i wouldnt have if he didnt say anything. and i hated him for a second for telling me, but im so glad he did. :) i never thought id be so happy after hearing my boyfriend tell me im such a bitch sometimes <3 haha i guess its the thought that counts and the fact that i love him so much i was able to just let go of my ego and tell him im sorry and that i know exactly what hes talking about.
oh, love.
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April 10th @ 2:12pm
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day 3 of driving:
i already have a dent in my car.
but thats okay because nothing can ruin my mood. its beautiful out, and i actually returned peoples call today which never happens, and i dont know im just really happy.
peoples comments make me happy too :) so i love you all for commenting
the only issue is that i havent been going to meetings. ive been to like 2 in the past couple of weeks and its bad. i dont want to start thinking that because its been so long since ive used and i dont have urges to do so, i dont need to go to meetings anymore.."im cured" but this is just the thinking that will put be right back where i was 3 months ago and i dont ever want to go back there
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April 9th @ 10:20am
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I GOT MY LICENSE!!!!!!!
alkwurp0/n53754b7
i was cruising the streets all day yesterday and it was the most amazing feeling driving by myself
and then i got bored after 20 minutes. but thats okay because its still amazing.
and this morning i woke up and wanted a bagel and i could go get one!!! it sounds stupid but that freedom felt so nice.
the semi-formal last night was a bummer. except everyone sang a very sweet drunken happy birthday to me on the bus ride there and it made me so happy. but being 1 of 3 sober people wasnt a lovely way to spend my birthday. and plus all my friends got busted for silly things so it was dumb and i left. and then peterrr came over and we had a good time <3 and he got me awesome presents because hes amazing.
and now i have a fucking SAT tutor but today is absolutely beautiful and i want to spend every second outside. so call me because i can come PICK YOU UPPPPPP in my car which is mine and hot and really hot and i love you.
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